diamonds aren't forever..

[ANNABEL DANIELLE REICH]

i can't believe i have a diary. but really, i have no one else to complain too. not anymore. the two most important people in my life are gone. one, i will never see again...my brother. i miss him so much, but i knew no one really cared. they wouldn't want to hear me cry. i guess it's why i've been holding it in for so long.

maybe it's why i'm so fucked up.

then there's micah. the boy i fell head over heels for. i knew he was worried about relationships. i promised i wouldn't cheat, and i didn't. i guess flirting with someone was a bad idea though. i guess i thought he trusted me enough to not cheat. i didn't, but i guess the trust didn't exist. if it had, i don't think the flirting would've been a big deal.

maybe it's the difference in culture.
maybe i have a different idea of relationships.
i know cheating is wrong. i would never do that, especially to Micah.
shit happens, i guess. i just know i haven't cried this hard in a very long, long time. i just...can't stop.


even my letter of acceptance from Juilliard didn't make me happy....and that's kind of a big deal to get accepted there. whatever, i guess me and relationships were never meant to be. just means more time for music. even though i truly wish i could've had the perfect relationship with micah. i guess i'm most disappointed in the way it ended. c'est la vie, unfortunately.

hopefully my life will get better soon, otherwise, i really dont know what i'm going to do. i wish it was me that had been murdered instead of my brother. how awful is that? ):

</3 Annabel

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