I'm so bound to you [Olivia]

[ETHAN CAMPBELL]

Ethan was already half way to the football field. He’d even passed a few professors on his way there, which made him feel awkward because of the reason why he was going to the football field. Ethan figured they would just think he was going to speak to the coach about one of the athlete’s grades. No big deal. That’d be his story at least if he ever got questioned. Being questioned was unlikely since he was kind of the only person walking through this part. He could even hear his own footsteps, but it was early in the morning, so that could explain it. The sun wasn't even out yet.

Pulling out his cell phone he scrolled through the conversation with Olivia. She was the one who told him to meet her there, and that she’d probably be there after he got there. Under the guest bleachers. He read as he approached the entrance. Looking up, he saw the gate closed on the guest side. The only way to get over that thing was to climb and hop over. Ethan huffed and rolled up his sleeves up to his elbow before grabbing ahold of the gate and pulling himself up and over the gate to land silently. Turning he looked looked at the chains, then behind him to see a pair of hedge clippers. This was so crazy for him. He was in his thirty’s acting like he was in high school sneaking off to see his girlfriend. Picking them up, he walked over and snapped open the chain for Olivia.

Ethan walked behind the bleachers and leaned against one of the poles, impatiently waiting for Olivia to arrive and tell him whatever she wanted to tell him. It must have not been good, either.

Outfit: Lookin' dressed up as always

Notes: Olivia..be nice while you're breaking this to him xD

[OLIVIA JANE RYDER]

The last few weeks with Ethan had been amazing. Sure, the weeks had been spent mostly in the comfort of his hotel room and occasionally around campus when no one was around, but they were still amazing. She'd really gotten to know him for him. Since the whole Cassie thing they had been really taking this seriously. It wasn't just an affair anymore, it was slowly becoming something bigger than ether of them could control, and it terrified her.

She'd been crying every night this week, she'd been alone in this. But one of her main fears was, aside from getting him caught, losing him. She was afraid she'd lose him of this. They had spoke about their fears and this one was of his, what had happened. Sure, she was on the pill but it was only 99% effective. She'd been mentally cursing herself for not making him wear a condom, but who would've thought something like this could happen? It was just her luck. Things had been finally going good for her and this happened.

Walking into the football field from behind, she wiped a tear from her eye before crossing her arms over her stomach as if she was holding herself together. Silently, she snuck through to the back of the guest bleachers where she had told Ethan to meet her and let out a sigh. Seeing the chain broken from the fence, that gave the reassurance that he was here. Letting out a soft laugh, he had no idea why it was so good to not have her hop the fence as she slowly opened it and crept into the shadows where they wouldn't be seen.

Seeing him leaning against the pole was like a kick in the gut, or was that just the creature swimming inside of her. He was going to leave her, she knew it. This was his greatest fear. They hadn't even had the baby talk yet. Taking a deep shakey breath, she walked up to him and just did the first thing that she felt was right and wrapped her arms around his waist, hiding her face in his chest before letting out a relieved sigh. "Thank you for meeting me," she said quietly with a cracked voice, trying to fight back the tears before looking up at him and puckering her lips slightly. Knowing this could be her last kiss from him, she wanted it to last.

ooc. I swear she'll do it in the next post.. I just.. Gah I can't do it! Haha it can't be reallll >.<

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[ETHAN CAMPBELL]

Ethan sighed heavily as he waited. It was seeming like she was going to take forever to get here. He was getting impatient actually, but then he said to himself Give her time..you’re only being like this cause you’re nervous. Who knows? It might be good news! He really hoped it would be good news, but did anyone ever really think about good news when their boyfriend or girlfriend said “Hey, we need to talk”? Nope. Never. And of course like the average teenager he was standing here with the cold pole pressed to his forehead wondering if she’d found a guy of her age. That was his biggest worry, right now at least. But she probably deserved happiness outside in the world, instead of being hidden inside with him. Please..please..don’t let it be that.. He knew it was selfish, but he couldn’t help it.

Right now, he really wished he smoked, it was a stress reliever and he really needed some of that. When he heard the sound of the gate opening and closing, his heart dropped and he turned around peering over the corner for the slightest body part to know it was Olivia. Finally, she was there. A wide smile appeared on Ethan’s face and he opened his arms before wrapping them around her and kissing the top of her head. Something felt different though, her stomach seemed to be bigger. Maybe she just gained a little, he thought before pulling back and twining their fingers together as he leaned back onto the pole. “No problem. I love seeing you, you know this.” He said with the smile still stuck to his face. “Anyways, what do you need to talk to me about?”

[OLIVIA JANE RYDER]

When she saw Ethan's face light up like a kid at christmas, she felt her heart ache and took a deep breath, remembering his scent as he pulled away. When they twined their fingers together Olivia automatically began stroking her thumb along his hand gently. It had become a habit to her when she was comforting him, but this time she was more comforting herself as she mentally prepared herself to tell him what she was about to tell him.

"I love seeing you too, so much," she said with a soft laugh and a smile. Her voice still quiet. Taking in a deep breath as he asked her what she needed to talk to him about. She looked up into his eyes. Hands down his most attractive feature, so caring and sincere, loving. She could get lost in his eyes and that's all she wanted to to, but she had to pull herself together and do this. The sooner she did it, the sooner she'd know his reaction. His reaction was key in this. She hoped it would go better than she was imagining, but it was an unpredictable situation.

Sighing, she dropped her gaze and began to try to explain what was going on inside of her right now. "Well, um..," nervously, she took a deep breath and laughed, looking up at the sky thinking why me? before looking back into his eyes, feeling her heart skip a beat. There was no easy way to do this, and she couldn't bring herself to say it, so instead she took the hand that was twined with hers and released it, gently taking his wrist and leading it to her stomach, pressing his hand onto it gently and closed her eyes. It felt.. Right. In a sick way. Her professor was also the father of her first child. It sounded wrong, but she loved him more than she ever thought she could.

Looking up into his eyes with slight fear that she was going to lose him, she didn't hesitate this time and blurted out before she lost the courage, "I'm pregnant.."

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[ETHAN CAMPBELL]

Ethan had noticed ever since she texted him that something was off about her. That’s exactly why he thought negative things and reasons why she wanted to talk, but he also almost believed that he was just being paranoid and everything was okay. That was until he saw her face, regardless of how much he smiled, he could see that something was bothering her. Usually she was happy to see him, but her face just showed sadness.

After he’d asked her the question, immediately he began preparing himself for the answer. Break up time. That’s what he really thought after all. Ethan looked back into her eyes basically pleading her. Don’t do this..Don’t do it. God. What a wimp he was. His heart ached as she let go of his hand. Or get it over with.. He thought as he looked down at his hand, then his eyebrows furrowed when she grabbed his wrist and guided his hand to her stomach.

She didn’t even need to say it to him. He knew. He’d noticed the bump in her belly, and her acting all emotional and weird, it all started coming together when his head. Ethan stood there staring at his hand, right then he only felt numb. As he stood there longer, tears began to flood his eyes and his stomach turned inside out. His hands began to shake, but his body was hot. “I-I..” He replied in a mumbling tone.

[OLIVIA JANE RYDER]

His reaction made her bottom lip tremble as she fought back even more tears. Her heart felt like it had caved in, there was just a hollow, raw hole there. Even the slightest touch would make her scream out in pain.. And it seemed like each time he had said something, it was like a hot metal prod just poking into the hole to see if there was anything left.

If she hadn't known that the inevitable was coming, she would have dreamed of this moment. Telling him wouldn't have to be a secret, and he would get tears in his eyes of happiness, not fear. He'd take her up into his arms excitedly and shout it to the world. But here they were, under the cold and lonely guest bleachers. Both trembling and fighting back the urge to break down and cry and she shook her head and looked down, sniffling.

She was speechless, she didn't know what to say as she stared down at his hand on her stomach. That was her breaking point, the hole had caved in far enough and the tears here unstoppable as she broke into a silent sob. Just get it over with, she thought to herself, just leave me already...

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[ETHAN CAMPBELL]

Ethan was froze in shock. The emotion of finding all of this out never even hit him yet, he was still just standing there staring, trying to find some source for words. What was he going to do? What was she going to do? Olivia wouldn’t even be able to tell her friends or anybody, maybe Blaine, but anyone but him, who the baby’s father was. He wouldn’t be able to shout that he was finally going to be a father. He wasn’t even sure if there was a way to even be there when the baby would be born. The only thing he did know was, he would not let her get rid of their baby. It didn’t matter what the situation was, that was their child. His child. And he loved it already, regardless what situation he’d just put it through. Oh great. Guilty, sadness, and worry, here you come.

Ethan now let go of Olivia, his eyes filling with tears before taking a step off then turning back to her. “What are we going to do Olivia?” He shouted, hopefully not to loud. “There is a child. My child. In your stomach.” He said now pointing his finger at her stomach. “Who knows if I will even be there to see them be born?” This was terrible, such bad timing, but no matter what, his and her child would never be a mistake. Not to him.

[OLIVIA JANE RYDER]

When Ethan pulled away from Olivia, it was like a sock right in the gut. The tears fell freely down her cheeks and she shook her head. God, here it comes... she thought as she looked up at his back as he turned away from her, realizing he also had tears in his eyes. Why did this have to happen now? Things were going so.. well, for them. As well as they could be though.

When he shouted she jumped a little and immediately took a step closer to him, placing a gentle hand on his arm as he continued talking. Feeling her bottom lip tremble, her heart stung with guilt. He was right, he probably wouldn't even be able to be able to see his child until after they were out of the hospital. That made her feel more like shit. But fighting back tears, trying to be strong even though she knew she was about to fall apart, she muttered, "we'll figure something out. I know we will. You'll be there..."

Olivia then placed her hands on each of his cheeks, gently holding his face in her hands and began stroking his cheeks with his thumbs. While doing this she took a deep shakey breath fighting back the tears once again, she pulled him closer and whispered, "we'll get through this just please, please don't leave me." Feeling her bottom lip tremble once again, she managed to choke out without breaking down, "I'm scared.. and I need you."

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[ETHAN CAMPBELL]

Before Olivia could even answer Ethan, Ethan lifted his hands and ran them over his face trying to gain some kind of comfort for himself. Shouldn't this be a time of happiness? Having a child? It was something Ethan had been dreaming of having with Cassie, not anymore though. Now, Ethan considered that woman a slut. Everything was getting better now though. Why did this have to ruin it? Even though Olivia and him had to hide, she still made him happy, and without any kind of stress except maybe a fight or two.

Sighing as Olivia attempted to comfort him, he then cursed himself for being so selfish. It was Olivia Ryder. The girl that tries to be the baddest bitch, yet here she is, pregnant. With a professors child. "I won't." Ethan said in a soothing voice as his arms pulled her in before he could pull back and ran his fingers through her hair. "I promise. I'm not leaving." He tried again to sooth her. "And you're right. We can make this work...Somehow. Okay?"

[OLIVIA JANE RYDER]

It was like Ethan knew exactly what to say to Olivia to make her go from completely panicked to relaxed. It showed now more than ever. Sighing into his embrace, she wrapped her arms around him tight. As quickly as he had taken away the anxiety and the panic it had returned when he reassured her they'd figure something out. Sure, she was relieved that he wasn't leaving her, she was still afraid to get her hopes up of him staying. No one ever stayed, even if they promised. In the end she was always so alone. In less than nine months though, she wouldn't be alone anymore.. Ever.

I'm not ready for this.. It's all so much to handle, she thought to herself as she began to sob while in Ethan's warm embrace. She felt selfish crying, she felt foolish crying. Come to think of it, this was the first time Ethan would ever see her cry. It broke her heart that it had to be over something they should be excited about. Hopefully in a few weeks once everything had calm down a little they could truly enjoy this miracle that had happened for them.

Optimism wasn't one of Olivia's greatest traits, but it was going to have to do if she was to pull through this and have a level headed mother. She'd gotten this far in life, and she'd get through this. Especially with Ethan by her side. She felt invincible when they were together. Looking up at him, she tried to smile and let out an even poorer attempt at a laugh. "You're happy, at least.. Right? I mean, you're going to be a dad..." she trailed off. Thankfully her voice sounded sincere, because it was. She was happy as long as it stayed behind closed doors. But she was already starting to show...

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[ETHAN CAMPBELL]

"Yeah...I guess. I mean, I-I..It's not the right way, but yeah." Ethan said with a shakey voice, he still had the lump in his throat, and the horrid feeling of him thinking he was about to throw up his breakfast, not only that but he was sweating like crazy. Ethan wasn't the type to give into alcohol just easily, but right now he really wanted to, as bad as it sounds, he wanted to just turn back time and fix all of this. It would be the best for both of them, especially for Olivia. She'd be getting the constant bullying, comments, looks, and drama.

This hole time, his grip tightened on Olivia while he thought even more about the situation, and when he realized it, he'd loosen his arms and sigh at himself. "Sorry." a small mumble came from his lips before his head tilted back and looked up at the sky. It was lighter than earlier, but cloudy and windy even though there was no sun to be spotted. It felt nice to him, the cool breeze caressing his hot skin and rustling through his hair, making a few strands poke out from their place.

He sighed again, this time a much more relieved sigh. If it wasn't for that one little moment of silence, and calm feeling, he probably would still be freaking out right now, and ran away like a stupid college boy would from a bad situation. Ethan now dropped his head down, and pressed his lips to Olivia's forehead before gently to her lips. "It'll be okay. I really am glad for this baby." The words were really filled of confidence this time, and faith. It would be okay, because his daughter or son, is something to fight for, and he was pretty sure everyone knew that Olivia was a fighter. They were both smart, and could get through this together.

Hearing a car pull down the nearest road, Ethan swiftly stepped his way back into the dark shade of the bleachers, guiding Olivia as if he was ball room dancing then looked at his watch and frowned slightly. "I have to go..."